As a child I knew God but as a young adult I decided he just wasn’t for me. You can live a pretty good life in Australia ignoring God, and for 25 years or so I did – but I always knew eventually my time would end and my life would be over – just like an enjoyable holiday or fun-packed weekend. The truth is you can do whatever you like, but only for a very short time, then your life will be judged by God – whether you like it or not. Whatever you think, feel, or believe is of no consequence to what is true. I thought to myself, if I’m going to face God eventually, I might as well face up to it now when I can do something about it rather than later when it will be too late. I didn't want to face an eternity of regret. So I started communicating with God – and to my astonishment he was still there.
I thank God daily that he stood by me even when I deserted him – in a strange way he re-proved himself to me through my disbelief – it’s an amazing thing that the truth is really there if you wish to look for it. For a period I was living a lie - claiming God isn’t true by not really searching – providing myself with an excuse to do whatever I wanted. Given the extent to which God reveals himself through creation, spirit, and word it really was a pretty lame excuse. Once I looked into these things I realised I had no basis to claim God was not true.
We are all forced to make a choice whether we want to or not – I’ve given up trying to deny God and accepted that there really is only one choice if you wish to live. Now I am learning more and more of how wonderful, interesting, and amazing a life with God really is.